Especially when my parents got a divorce when I was 7. Do you know how hard it is to this day to write a lyric that rhymes one into the next, into the next ― to where it strings together like a golden thread and you’re just along for the ride? That’s tough! So those kinds of moments changed my life.
What is going on with the Four Tops? What do you mean, ‘Baby, I need your lovin’”?. And why Aretha, what is she doing? And Nancy Wilson. And why Jackie Wilson was slaying it like he did. And I wanted to know why Sam Cooke killed me the way he did. And I wanted to know why it felt the way it did, why it made me feel the way it did. Through some of my friends of color, I discovered R&B music. And when I got into the double digits - 10, 12, 13 years old - I was into 45s. I started buying music at an early, early age. I started listening to radio at an early age. And from that point on, I was never the same. His father was a singer, and I think in his DNA something resonated with him too. … Well, I think it’s just ― Steve Perry was someone who was touched by music when he was 4 or 5 years old. Uncle Steve is no spring chicken, that’s for sure. I am getting older - I should start thinking about that, perhaps. I don’t know what to say about that except that I was doing the best I could to keep walking and not feel too bad about taking care of myself, because I needed to get out. One that comes to mind is “I don’t care who you are, where you’re from, what you did, as long as you love me.” It was this whole other landscape with garage, alternative, boy bands, and somewhere on other channels, Journey stuff was still going on. And here comes this era of boy band and electronic music, and I really liked the songwriting of some of it. So slowly all this stuff started to change. I was kind of PTSD for music when I quit. I couldn’t listen to anything with vocals or melodies or singers. I must admit, though, I was slowly opening my heart to music, because in the beginning, all I could listen to was ambient music. They did have something in them that continued to touch people while the music business went into boy-band land and electronic drums. That’s a great question, because they did have a life. Some are about loss, but the record has all sorts of tones to it. You gotta understand how much that meant to me emotionally. I just found this songwriting thing came back. And slowly I got the passion back for music that I had lost when I left the group years before. And I thought I had a pretty good heart, but it took me two, almost three years of grieving. So that was the big change in my life that … a heart isn’t really broken until it’s completely broken, and that was when it got completely broken. And then about two months later, I lost her on Dec. But she knew something had changed, just before the time Hurricane Sandy hit.
We were living in Manhattan, and she was getting some treatment there that was actually working for her. And she had already been fighting stage 4 breast cancer, but you would never know it. Well, Kellie and I found each other through Patty Jenkins, and we were together for a year and a half. So it has so excitedly returned to me, and I’m really, really excited about it. I don’t think anybody noticed, but toward the end there, I was not connecting, and my passion for music that I had found when I was 5 or 6 years old that I brought with me into my life, and I just started to lose that, and it scared the hell out of me, and I couldn’t connect with my foundation, which I was pulling my singing from and my passion for writing music too. When I left the group, I left because the passion had left my heart and I felt like I was sort of singing by numbers, emotionally. So I didn’t know that the passion for music would return. There are just so many feelings coming out at the same time because it’s been so many years - I would say over 31 - that I’ve really gotten into this with the passion I have now. You know what? That is so kind of you to ask you how I’m feeling.
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